Fuck you all.

I don't know what to feel.
I feel like I'm going to be sick.
How could no one have told me this.
What the fuck.
No, this isn't alright.
No, no, no.
How can people just not tell me this?
How can you call me your friend?
I haven't gotten drunk since the start of the year because I've been scared of it.
But now I really just want nothing more then to go out drinking.
I just need to not feel like shit.
I need to forget that my friends don't trust me,
That everyone hates me.
I need to forget that my friends don't love me enough to tell me what's going on.

Kill me.